My mom is on oxygen....and I'm scared. I'm scared and it sucks and I'm in that place again, that 'should I even bother going?' place, because I'm afraid that something will happen while I'm gone, and she won't make it. And that....I would never forgive myself.
I told alyssa, and you know what she said? She told me that maybe I should cut off contact. Stop getting the newsfeed, if you will.
Really? I hate that she acts like just because we're not close, I can just do that. Can you cut off your leg? Not without seriously impairing youe life. Same here. I can't just check out. She doesn't have much; neither do I. We are messed up and ugly and mismatched, but we need one another. And maybe she's not been what she should have....that doesn't make our relationship any less important, any less meaningful than another mother-daughter relationship. I love her, she loves me. What else matters?
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