So it turns out we don't have the money for Andrews, and they are not offering a big enough amount of money, and I can't get all the grants we were counting on.
So what's more important? Seeing my boyfriend every month, or Andrews? Seeing New Mexico, or Andrews? Enjoying my summer, or Andrews?
But really...I can see Chad a few times during the school year, and be okay. And I can go somewhere silly like Louisianna, and be okay. And I can make the most of my summer, and be okay. Andrews is so vital to me, right now. I have hung all of my hopes on it, and maybe I'm dumb to have done that, but all I can think is that I'm getting out. I'm getting the hell out of here, I'm taking that first step....how important is it to me? Vital. It is the only thing that keeps me breathing, this hope that soon I will be somewhere else.
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