february

I used to hate november. Awful, awful things happen to me in november. Apparantly, awful things happen in february too.

There was all that crap with my dad, and now this....my mom is sick, again. She's been in the hospital since monday and got out today. Something is wrong with her heart, but they can't figure out what, so they let her go. Is it because she's poor? Because I kind of think it is. I think they went 'Oh, we have another MediCare patient. Boyfriend brought her in...she went out for lotto tickets and smokes, and came back sick. She smells like beer and looks like she's been living out of a cardboard box for a while...'

Did they let her go because she doesn't deserve their care? Because she's just some old bag lady, and they have better people to save? They should have done more tests. She had a all the symptoms of a heart attack...why did they let her go?

She's not just a bag lady. As much as I hate to say this, she's Sal's companion ( does not mean I like him, at all). She's Rose Matusik's daughter, and she's MY MOTHER. I don't care how poor or ugly or beaten she is, or how much of it is her fault, for drinking and doing drugs and all of that. She's still my mother, and she's still sick. They don't get to decide if she's worth saving, or not. Everyone is worth saving.