giant's despair

so, sunday night chad kidnapped me, and tried to take me to Giant's. He couldn't find it, though, and evewn when I helped him, it was too foggy and slippery and scary. So, we didn't go, which was probably for the better, but still, just the idea....it was so sweet, and spontaneous. I was so, so happy.

I love Giant's Despair. I think part of it is just the name. What does that mean? Why is the giant despairing? 'Cause if I were a giant, I wouldn't be upset! I'd stomp around, and make people do my bidding. I'd eat trees and stuff, and be like 'rawr! om, nom nom nom!'. It would be awesome.

But then, I think about the actual place...it's a cliff, basically, that overlooks all of Wilkes-Barre. When you sit there, you feel so tiny, and the world feels so big...in a good way. Like there is all this beauty, all these possibilities, and you are only covering a corner, only seeing the tiniest speck of the picture. But a giant would never feel like that...you could never dangle your feet over a precipice, or feel insignificant, or have the city splayed out beneath you, far, far away. You wouldn't have to dream of someday seeing the world, because you could swim the ocean in a few minutes and get to China, or whatever, and be all like 'woah! China, and stuff!'....So eventually, there would be nothing left to discover, nothing more to achieve.

What happens, when you accomplish everything? When you have seen everything, know everything....so often, we see the impossibility of knowing everything, or achieving all of our goals as a bad thing, but what if it's a blessing? What would life be like, if you did everything you wanted to? What would you do, when you were done?

Maybe I will never be completely satisfied with life. Maybe there will always be more to learn, more to accomplish, more to see. And yeah, I'm tiny, and I can't do much....but the mounds of things to be done, and my own tiny, insignificant self...that's what keeps me growing, you know? I have so much I want to do, but I need to be a bigger, better person in order to do all of it, or in order to do it well...so I grow, and I change, and I move along. I will never outgrow the world, or find that there's nothing left for me to do; I will always have oppertunities and mountains to climb, oceans to explore. I am tiny, and I am not despairing.