done.

So, I keep thinking about New Mexico, and all the things that are standing in my way. I'm finding, increasingly, that the persons concerned are completely inconsiderate of me...so why the hell do I care?


...I don't think I do, anymore.

Work was hell, today. There have been days where I wanted to quit, but what bothered me more than anything today wasn't the frustration, or even the ridiculously high stress level. It was the fact that my boss didn't warn me, didn't help, and did nothing to alieve the stress. She just sat around and watched me freak out. It was so hard, today, and she wouldn't help, she didn't do ANYTHING. And I was so frustrated, I just wanted to cry, and Ash did too. It sucked.

This is the woman I'm worried about offending? I'm going to put the kabosh on my summer plans to help her, when she won't help me? Why do I care? Why am I worried about her, when she obviously doesn't care about me, or my health?

And then there's my friends. I'm supposed to go to Assateague with them, but lately I'm like...why? Lyss blows me off for Colton all the time, no one else really knows me...why is it worth it, to me? They asked what times were good, I said early June, and it was like ''oh, no! too cold!' I figured if I went before school got out, Maureen wouldn't miss me, and it wouldn't really count as vacation time, so I could do both. But seriously? If they're not willing to work, why ask? Why bother pretending to care about my opinion, if you don't?

So, screw them. If it doesn't work out, I'm not going to bother. I'm just going to take August off of work, or whatever, and skip out on Assateague if I have to, and do what I want, for a change, instead of worrying about people who don't consider my feelings, or wants, or needs. Seriously, I'm just done.