Wasting away....

I woke up at 10:30 today, and have been wasting my life ever since.

I could be doing a lot of things, like cleaning the house or watching my training videos for work. Instead, I talked to Lita for like an hour, wrote a bunch for 'Lost Song', and updated my sim stories. Yes, I write sim stories, and it is totally dorky of me. But....but I have an excuse, or sort of.

Basically, I write about anything I can get my hands on. Especially now, when my real-life stories just aren't coming out right, and are so difficult to write. If I write a fanfiction, or a sim story, I don't have to take it seriously. When I'm not worrying about writing it to publish it (which I inevitably do when I write real stories), it is just for me, and that is when it becomes something honest, something beautiful.

It all started in eighth grade with a Johnny Depp fansite. I started writing a fanfic about 'Pirates of the Carribbean'. While I was doing that, I started another story called [fiction], (yes, I have to put the brakets. They are a part of the story, and I love them). I was only fourteen and it was totally far-fetched, about a ninteen year old with a baby who falls in love with Johnny, and the chaos that ensued. I mean, it was really, truly silly. What gets me is that so many people on the site praised me for it, when it was really this awful pile of crap. Either way, I stayed on the site for another year, writing stories about a number of different JD movies, until the Green Day fic happened.

Cassie started it. She wrote this story about three girls who get to meet Green Day - Aeoryn, who she based on herself, Adia, who she based on me, and Sputnik, who she based on Holly. When she was only a little bit in, she asked me if I would like to write from Adia's perspective....and chaos ensued.

I hate to say that I hit my peak at fifteen. But that thing...it was 460 or so pages long, I mean, it was seriously ridiculous. I wrote it over an 8 month span, and it was so many things - it helped me deal with the boarding school transition, it helped me deal with Tom not being what I needed him to be.... but it was a very silly story - Adia meets Tre, they fall in love, they have a lot of drunken adventures, and then get pregnant. The ending is the only thing I really like - it ends on a rooftop, which is where so many of my adventures have begun.

So I am re-writing it, because the first 2 notebooks (350 pages) are gone, and I miss them. I might re-write the last notebook too, but it is precious to me, because it has all these little notes from the party right before I left for BMA, and the night before registration when I stayed up until 5 in the morning because I was too sad to sleep. I still don't know, I just know that I want to re-write the beginning, and make it a more respectable work.