well

My throat is scratchy, and my chest is filling with goo. I don't feel well at all, and there is so much to it than that.

I went to bed early. It's so sad, Carly's only been gone a day, and I already feel...empty. Having a companion always reminds me of how lonely my day-to-day life is. I'm such a social person, and everywhere I go, I talk to someone - so why do I feel so alone?

I'm going to see if Cass and I can get together tonight. Yes, I'm sick, and I have my abortion paper to work on, but I also need to worry about my mental well-being, right? Right. Besides, we need to discuss story, and I need more Green Day (I've been listening to Nimrod for two weeks straight now) AND, I think Cass could use a little goof-off time. Poor kid's been so busy, lately.

I wore the sandalwood bracelet today, along with a beaded one I got at Bloom Fair. I was reading the little paper about the meaning of sandalwood, and it was so...fitting. I mean, it's supposed to encourage me to live in the present, to be here, in this moment. It reminds me of something Shane said to me so long ago, about how I need to stop thinking so far ahead in my life, and enjoy the here and now, while it lasts. And so, tonight I will go to Cass's, and enjoy my life, as it is today.