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I hate watching people drive away.

This weekend was amazing. I love my friends...seriously, however shitty my life might be, I have the greatest circle of people around me. I love Cass, and the antics she brings, and Lyssa, and the understanding we have, and Carrie, who can make a connection with me in 2 seconds, no matter how long it's been between our sightings.

And Carly? Um, yeah. Love her. It's funny, because nothing worked out the way I thought it would. She didn't come to the church thing Friday night, we didn't actually reach the pretty house to take pictures (massive apologies, Lita) AND, saturday night was total bust fair-wise. Honestly, I've never even BEEN to bloom fair during daylight hours, so it was really, really weird today. But the rescue mission for Chad Friday night was amazing, even if it was hella stressful. The 5 mile in the rain walk on Sabbath was amazing, and it even made me all warm and fuzzy to show Lita my nana and pop's house, and all the things I loved about that place when I was a kid. And then the baking Saturnday night, and watching The Other Boleyn girl on my poor, slow computer.....2 hours of viewing, just to see maybe 50 minutes, all peppered with hilarious youtube videos (I do NOT wear diapers!) .....ah! And then the fair today, with the elephants! It was just so, so good, and it made me miss her. I miss having her down the hall, right where I can reach her. I miss the long walks and the rain storms, the tea parties....I remembered so many things about her, and our friendship, and the chemistry there that I'd somehow forgotten. Makes me so happy.


It was bittersweet. Why does Lisa get so mixed up in everything? I don't even know how she make me feel so sad somethimes. But there were all these times this weekend, where Carly and I would be having a great time, and I'd have this awful pang, like, 'how long has it been since I laughed like this with my sister?' All through church, I was just on the verge of tears. It's been so long since I sang a hymn near someone, near a girl with a decent voice, and it made me so sad. I remember singing with Lisa, and laughing when I would screw up the words to the hymns I didn't know. Sometimes, I miss her so much I can hardly breathe.

It was such a good weekend, however sad it might have been. I don't realize how lonely I get in the house, sisterless, until someone comes...watching the car pull out today, I got all sad, the same way I do when Charlie horse leaves. It's no different to have him, or her, or Cassie or Lyssa. Just as long as there's some here, to help fill the empty house again.