I absolutely hate words.
It seems like lately, I cannot find the words to express anything I'm feeling, even this stuff with my mom. AUC is loosing its accredidation, so it looks like I'll be going to Andrews the fall after this one. Which, I would be excited for, if it didn't mean leaving behind things...
I keep saying I don't have to choose, I can have both, but nobody thinks it's possible, save Cass, and I don't know. I hate how it is turning out, and I hate that no words can express what's going on in my head. It's ridiculous, and it sucks.
I painted my toenails biohazzard orange (courtesy of Lita's abandoned stash) and then did a layer of this obnoxious Bonbon color...it's bright, sparkly barbie pink. They look so disgusting and bright and happy and...girly. Which is exactly the opposite of the way I feel right now. Maybe they are just toenails. Myabe they do not say anything deep, but right now it is nice to have one part of me, one tiny little piece of me that is, for all points and purposes, happy.
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